It’s time I finally got back onto this thing for real. I’ve nearly filled up an entire new sketchbook in the time since I last posted, and I know I packed up my other sketchbook and it’s around here somewhere but I just can’t find it.
so we’ll just start off on this new sketchbook m’kay?
and instead of going through sequentially, I’m going to start on some of my most recent sketches and work around posting whatever I feel like so I don’t feel “stuck” talking about a bunch of studies that didn’t really go anywhere.
Ok so today’s page…. Nashoba asked what I’ve been drawing recently, and I have been drawing a lot it’s just.. A lot of the more “recent” stuff is pretty personal; this doesn’t mean I won’t post any of it, I’ll just post the stuff I’m most comfortable with.
Drew this a little over a week ago to help myself cope with some things going on in my life. The hardest part about coping with these recent events has been my involvement in them, and how I view them from a personal stand-point. I wouldn’t call what I did or the following reactions of those around me “mistakes”, more like “missteps” - I refuse to call my involvement anything more or less than “a poorly miscalculated error of timing and communication”.
I refuse to feel guilty.
You can’t feel guilty after getting what you’ve been wanting for a decade.
The only thing I feel guilty of is that I put my own personal desires above the security of me and Max’s future together - hence the second little sketch where I ask if he’s lost respect for me. He hasn’t. He understands entirely why I did what I did, and why I did it when I did - and to be entirely honest he may have facilitated my actions quite a bit so… He isn’t angry, or upset. He is totally understanding and that is just… Awesome. He’s the best husband ever.
So there you go. That may not be a full explanation, but at least you guys can see some of the stuff that’s been going on in my head.